Developing Some of My Own Truths
Despite the fact that I’m trying to shake off a cold, I can’t help bother to think that life has been pretty great lately. I haven’t been able to say this for a while and let’s just say I’m thrilled that 2015 has come to an end. I’ve developed some of my own truths this year, these including: 1. Almost nothing is free 2. Toxic people will ruin your life. Almost nothing is free comes from experiences I have had with being committed to my music that gives very little pay and working a babysitting off and on while trying to pay off my trip from Guatemala. (I went on a missions trip with my church this past summer to build churches, picture provided up above). The second realization is something that has changed EVERYTHING for me. I recently realized that I’m not happy. I figured this out slowly as the first weeks of my senior year rolled by and I found myself constantly unhappy with the life I was living.
“you never have as much time as you think”
We have this new saying in my house that goes “you never have as much time as you think”. So why spend so much of it around people who aren’t as invested in you as you are in them? Toxic people for me have become people who simply do not care or people who use you for information or connections to other people.
So why am I so happy? First of all, I want you to understand that I believe happiness is a temporary satisfaction. My joy is found in my faith, and joy is an ALWAYS satisfaction. Secondly, with time-by slowly removing myself from atmospheres in which I didn’t feel welcome –I came across this realization. I found myself managing my time better and doing things for myself (which of course comes to a certain extent to where it’s selfish, but sometimes we need to take care of ourselves). Lastly, many blessings have been placed in my life. This including the help of singer/songwriter Justin Garcia who has become a mentor and a good friend of mine who I have started working with. He provides ideas, inspiration, and gets me more excited about my music with realistic goals. My writers block has been starting to wear off and I’ve been reading more. Another blessing are solid people in my life who I’ve been able to communicate with about my faith. There are many blessings that I have been provided within the last month and I’ll continue to blog about them. In the meantime, stay weird.
Lots of Love.